MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!    

Its almost X-mas time....woohoo!!!  Hmmm.... I don't really have any plans this year except for the X-mas party that I have to attend every year with the In-laws and my ANGEL!!! Besides that, I'm FREEEE!!!   

I wanna go clubbing and celebrate it there, but I'm not sure who'll be down for that. I'm pretty sure POOH BEAR would be,but I think he'll be spending some time with his ANGEL too. Which leaves my GIRLS, which I don't have a clue what their doing. SOoOOooo ... if you two ain't doing nothing, we should go clubbing....trust me it'll be fun especially for Hyan... ooops... I mean Anne... hahaha!!!  You'll enjoy it and you need it anyways. It'll be a Stress Reliever....hahaha!!!

Hopefully, I don't have to work that day. Oh yea, I'm all souped up about this coming Thursday because VERSACE is having their X-mas party at my bar. I'm not sure if I'm working that day or not, but I want to so I'm gonna ask Allen, which is my other boss, if I could!!!  *sniff sniff*  I smell big bucks!!!!

For those who haven't been down to my bar Yello... ya should go!!!  Its really nice and elegant unlike some other bars around C-town!!! Its a restuarant and karoake bar and they serve GOOD and YUMMY food....hahaha!!! 

Well, I think that's about it. This is what's been going on in my life lately. As for as my love relationship goes.... on a scale of 1-10... I give it a 71/2 or an 8. I honestly wanna be him and that's it!!! Its funny too that the time that I start to fall in love with him is around X-mas time.

Wassup everyone....  !!  Wow... I haven't been writing anything on my xanga lately. Got a lot of catching up to do...haha!!! Happy b-lated Thanksgiving everyone. I've been so busy that I haven't even talked to anyone. I wonder what's everyone up to? Work, work work....that's all I do now. Its aight though... as long as I'm making money and I'm able to support myself, Janel and whatever it is that we need.

Hiiiii .... been a while since I wrote anything on my xanga!!! I've been mighty busy and shit,but this week I got some free time on my hands so I'll be touching it up 

For real though... I've been busting my ass working and shit!! I'm juggling two jobs now... on the weekends I work at the mall and at night I'm at the bar waitressing or bartending, but mostly waitressing. Who ever thought I could handle two jobs...haha!!

I do miss my friends though because I don't get a chance to see them very much. * Miss you guys* 

Well, its been another long ass week for me AGAIN!!! Seriously, I need a night to go out and party.... FOR REALZ!!!! Too bad "THE CHARMED ONES" ain't as close as we were before....when I say close, I mean it literally!!!! We're all so far away from each other and stuff, but I really really miss you guys!!!

Its Friday and I'm heading to work. I wish I had a day off today,but even if I did, I have no one to spend it with anyways. So I guess its better off that I have work today. For some reason, I woke up today feeling empty. Did ya ever wake up feeling like that...maybe not,but its weird though. I don't feel sad, but just this emptiness inside of me. Hmmmm.... I can't really explain, but its like when someone lies to you and you find out.....you lose trust and then you feel that emptiness because you believed in them and now you can't. Its something like that,but the only difference is that nobody lied to me ( I don't think). Maybe its because deep down inside me, I feel like someone's not telling me everything or something happened already and I'm clueless about it!!! Of course there is a reason for me feeling like that....for everytime I feel a certain way....there's always a reason!!!

Well, it doesn't even matter how I feel...its not like I could talk to anyone about it. Its not like anybody gives a damn or even truly cares!!! I'm definitly not going to find any answers to my questions anyways. Anyway, I'll be too busy to even have time to feel!!!! I had a job offered to me yesterday and its for NEXTEL...again!!! This time its in Manhattan, which is pretty cool cuz I would want to work out there. I really enjoy the city scene,but its not a definite yet, both on my part and the manager. We'll see what happens, hopefully more job oppurtunities arrive. I'll just keep myself busy to try and forget about the negative feelings that I have inside. Its funny too because each and every day, I slowly start to feel it more and more.

I feel like I'm so close but yet so far!!!!  Can this be true...tell me can this be real? How can I put into words what I feel.....that's the perfect song that describes what I'm feeling....hehehe!!!!  Time to get ready for work and shit... I hope I get paid today cuz I really don't wanna ask my mom for money no more!!! I swear... if you can't even depend on your family, who can you depend on?!?! That's the question I would love to find an answer for!!!  =)